God Help Me, again
I woke up at 11:30 AM this morning. I fixed what was left of my chicken mac & cheese for breakfast.
Yesterday was a really slow Saturday, but I did better than I did on Friday.
Today, I plan to focus more on the other apps, only working Uber between runs and after 8 PM.
I am still tired, and really could use a day off work, but right now, I just can't afford it. And, it doesn't help when I can't even make my low goal on the weekends. I really could use your prayers.
I need to make $220 more to pay May's rent. Then I can start on next month's rent. I would like to have that by Tuesday, after which I owe $421 on my car payment.
I am so tired. But, one of the best managers I ever worked under told me once, "If you don't focus on the work at hand, and focus more on what's ahead, it isn't so heavy." This is why I always try to think 3 or 4 steps ahead of everything.
And, I thank God for the people who have crossed my path who are no longer with me today, as well as those that are. I look back and sometimes wonder where I would be today had they not been there when they were.
Lord, Thank You for giving me another day to make it right.
You are the Great provider, and I am but a sparrow in Your eyes. Like the Sparrow, I know that You will give me what I need to survive another day to do Your Will. Help me do it well!
Lord, I am so tired right now. This burden is so heavy. But, I am looking forward to the tasks ahead of me, and trying not to focus on right now - keeping my eye on the prize. Without You, I can do nothing. I need Your strength.
Be with my children and my lists. Make me better today than I was yesterday. Lead me, guide me, show me the way. Keep me safe and make my tools last. Give me more opportunity to serve You.
In Jesus's Holy Name, I pray, Amen!