Contentment

I woke up at 1:30 PM today, after going to bed at nearly 5 AM this morning.

Yesterday did not go as planned at all. But, I did have a nice trip.

I was also reminded that the grass is always greener until you get there. Then, you find out that grass is grass.

I probably would have done a whole lot better had I got started earlier, and not had the car problems I thought I had while I was there. It was wasted time I could have spent working.

But, I had to get my taxes done. And right now, the tax lady needs the mileage off my PT Cruiser. Or, she needs a breakdown of the miles I drove ON the PT Cruiser, verses the mileage I have driven with this car. I may have to go into Quickbooks and break down the mileage by the months to give her a good estimate. And, I have to do it by Monday.

It's a headache. I have another appointment at 1 PM on Monday.

And, I still haven't got my medication filled, because I owe $421 for my next bills by tomorrow.

I don't see that happening today.

Plus, my "Check Engine" light came on yesterday. I took it by the nearest O'Reilley's in Greenville, last night. They put the code reader on the car to figure out the problem, and it showed a "Fuel Ratio Imbalance"...something about the 02 Sensor. But, after about 3 hours of driving, it went off again about 2 hours before I came home.

My next goal is to get another vehicle. Period. After all my bills are caught up.

I am going to stay close to home. I will be working more hours this next week, until my bills are caught up.

I really don't want to ask for help again from anyone. It was stressful enough. At least now I can work full force - for now.

Lord, You know my needs.

Help me to trust You to make a way more. Help me to be content with where I am so that I can concentrate on what I need to do and be happy with what You provide for me, even if I believe I need more. If You don't give me all I need to pay the bills, there is a reason for it. Maybe You need me to experience the loss for some reason. But, I am fighting to maintain my integrity and dependability for others to see in me, and I know that without you I can't. And I find it hard to believe that You wouldn't want me to try to do the best I can do to make sure that my bills are paid on time.

Help me get rid of some of those bills and not have to add to them.

I want to be able to focus more on YOU, Lord, but I am drowning in debt right now, and I need Your hand to bring me the business that is required for me to be able to pay it off.

I can only hope to serve You THROUGH my work, AS I work.

Be with my children and my lists. Thank You for the good news that some of my list members got yesterday. It was welcomed good news! Be with those who still need Your touch in their lives in any way they need it.

In Jesus's Holy Name, I pray, AMEN!

1 Timothy Chapter 6

6 But godliness with contentment is great gain.

7 For we brought nothing into this world, and it is certain we can carry nothing out.

8 And having food and raiment let us be therewith content.

9 But they that will be rich fall into temptation and a snare, and into many foolish and hurtful lusts, which drown men in destruction and perdition.

10 For the love of money is the root of all evil: which while some coveted after, they have erred from the faith, and pierced themselves through with many sorrows.

11 But thou, O man of God, flee these things; and follow after righteousness, godliness, faith, love, patience, meekness.

12 Fight the good fight of faith, lay hold on eternal life, whereunto thou art also called, and hast professed a good profession before many witnesses.

I needed this reminder.